Ditching the Scale

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Back in January, these pants were so tight I could barely close the buttons. I could barely breathe in the pants and now, they’re baggy (around my thighs especially) and loose.

Back in January, these pants were so tight I could barely close the buttons. I could barely breathe in the pants and now, they’re baggy (around my thighs especially) and loose.

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Progress~! (June 25, 2012)

So I went to the mall today and tried on pants. Currently, I wear these trousers from Arizona at size 15. I knew they were loose and decided to try on size 13 and 11. I couldn’t believe how suddenly nervous I got slipping the pants over my thighs. But I didn’t have to worry because the 13 went on smoothly (my new comfortable size). I had no expectations for the size 11 pants but tried them on anyway. I had a hard time closing the buttons but I did it. The 11 pair was super tight but I still managed to close the buttons. I also stepped onto the scale which read 199.8 lbs. That’s maybe a one pound difference but I swear I was the same weight when I could barely stuff myself into size 15 trousers.

This is why the number on the scale shouldn’t be so important. I’m proud of the progress I made so far. In the beginning, I was a size 19 and now I’ve gone down four sizes. Damn, I’m proud of myself! I still have a good two months left so if I keep this up maybe I can get down two more pant sizes?

I also went grocery shopping and stocked up on salmon, chicken breasts, frozen veggies, and hommus. I’m ready to work my ass off the next four-five weeks to make even more progress!

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I used to spend so much time reacting and responding to everyone else that my life had no direction. Other people’s lives, problems, and wants set the course for my life. Once I realized it was okay for me to think about and identify what I wanted, remarkable things began to take place in my life.
Melody Beattie (via internal-acceptance-movement)

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Feeling Unmotivated {81 Days Left}

I know it’s not normal to be happy 24/7 and that it’s okay to feel down once in a while but I think I’m about to go crazy. I used to love reading books and I can’t even get myself to finish any of them. I like watching stuff on Netflix but can’t even seem to sit down and pay attention for more than five minutes.

My workouts have been fine. My knee is feeling a lot better and I don’t feel any pain at all. It was kind of frustrating not being able to run as much as I wanted to. I definitely think my eating needs more work. It’s hard because my family just stocks whatever junk food they want and expect me to use sheer willpower to not give into temptation. But I feel in control so I avoid the “bad” foods as much as I can.

I think my attitude is the result of understanding that I’m a different person now than I was last summer. I may not exercise everyday or eat healthy 100% of the time but it’s a huge difference from before. I remember when I could easily sleep in late, then just stay in bed watching movies/tv shows online for hours, then eating one large meal, and go to work. Now I feel antsy if I don’t get my workout in when I’m supposed to. I’ve noticed that eating carbs (rice/pasta) needs to happen right after my exercise or I feel really bloated. I enjoy eating my chicken breasts/salmon with veggies over anything else. Junk and fast food no longer have their hold on me. I notice that I get full faster with less food.

I guess I’m just feeling disappointed in myself because out of all my friends, I’m the only one who’s at home working while everyone else is traveling, doing an internship, or just living in their own apartments.

Nothing else but to keep eating healthy and work out.

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Annoyed.

This is going to be a rant.

I honestly do not care if people judge me negatively because I chose to study sociology as my main major. I’ve taken many classes analyzing society and how groups of people act. Most of these courses have a huge social justice component to them. I have learned a lot about who I am and how to connect my own experiences to the overall structure of society I live in today. It allows me to analyze the more complicated layers of our culture which in turn, keeps me from wanting to go crazy with frustration. 

I was already in a foul mood when I went to work and while I certainly feel better now, something bothered me.

My ex-boyfriend and I work in the same place. We dated and broke up five years ago. I dumped him because he happened to be a dumbass except I didn’t realized it until nine months in.

We’re civil/friendly to each other now. I still think he’s an idiot and would prefer to be not in his company. However, because we were assigned to the same task and we got onto the topic of fitness.

I mentioned how I was doing the Couch to 5k Program. I also mentioned reading up on Starting Strength. What really pissed me off was that he immediately dismissed me as not being knowledgeable. “Don’t do programs. Don’t trust them.”

He clearly was talking down to me as if I, as a woman, was not capable of figuring out what was bullshit and what was legit. He also didn’t even bother to find out what either program was in detail before giving an immediate judgment on it. If you’re going to write off something, at least get to know what you’re actually badmouthing before you spew shit from your mouth.

And you know what? I’m going to do a very uncharacteristic thing and give him the benefit of the doubt. Maybe he was just trying to be helpful instead of trying to show off his knowledge thinking he could “save/rescue” someone from their deteriorating health conditions. What’s more important is the downright freaky realization I had after this conversation…

I think I understand why I prefer the company of my female friends than guys. When I have conversations with my female friends, I control the conversation. I can frame the conversation and direct it where I want to. I have no problem disagreeing or voicing my opinion. With guys, it’s very different. I find myself not challenging a guy’s opinion as much as I would with a girl’s (although I’m making huge efforts to fix this). I usually find when I’m talking with a guy, he’s the one controlling the conversation (at least back when I let myself be intimidated). It amazes me now that I used to do this all the time. Just let the guy run off his mouth or say stupid crap that I would have normally called a girl out on.

This is related to my own body transformation journey. I have no doubt that there will be plenty of people who will have their own opinions about what’s right and wrong. I don’t necessarily think everything I do is 100% correct nor do I think what I am doing will work for others. However, this is my body. Not only am I taking responsibility for it, I get the ultimate decision on what methods I will use to make it into the best shape I can.

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Nine dangerous things you were taught in school.

1. The people in charge have all the answers.
That’s why they are so wealthy and happy and healthy and powerful—ask any teacher.

2. Learning ends when you leave the classroom.
Your fort building, trail forging, frog catching, friend making, game playing, and drawing won’t earn you any extra credit. Just watch TV.

3. The best and brightest follow the rules.
You will be rewarded for your subordination, just not as much as your superiors, who, of course, have their own rules.

4. What the books say is always true.
Now go read your creationism chapter. There will be a test.

5. There is a very clear, single path to success.
It’s called college. Everyone can join the top 1% if they do well enough in school and ignore the basic math problem inherent in that idea.

6. Behaving yourself is as important as getting good marks.
Whistle-blowing, questioning the status quo, and thinking your own thoughts are no-nos. Be quiet and get back on the assembly line.

7. Standardized tests measure your value.
By value, I’m talking about future earning potential, not anything else that might have other kinds of value.

8. Days off are always more fun than sitting in the classroom.
You are trained from a young age to base your life around dribbles of allocated vacation. Be grateful for them.

9. The purpose of your education is your future career.
And so you will be taught to be a good worker. You have to teach yourself how to be something more.

(Source: braddogott, via ohwhatevertrever)

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fitzoey:

Bazooka-show Thursday (Gun show was a little boring) you can actually see my birthmark under my arm, something I’m pretty self-conscious of but whatever :-P
I look frazzled in the picture because I’ve been taking care of my 11-month old twin nieces all day, I’m so tired. I don’t know how my sister does it. I already know I don’t want any children, but man after today, that was the nail in the coffin.
I will be updating tonight about EVERYTHING (good and bad) and answering people back. :)
RANT: I did see a few things right now on Tumblr that really bothered me. While I was clicking around on random Tumblr pages, I came across such a frustrating page. This person was on their FOURTH day of fasting. And when asked about their caloric intake, they try to eat less than 1,000 calories but barely reach 1,000, especially because they work out for more than an hour. This was so sad to me and so frustrating because people think this is NORMAL.  Then there are really “popular” Tumblrs that have lots of followers and give out all this advice but after looking at their intake, they eat like 1200 calories a day, and work out on top of that….
Marta (wonder-girl-fitness) had a great post about thinking before you give out advice. MOST of us on here don’t know much about anything, and aren’t qualified or certified to give out the advice people are looking for.
A lot of people are so fucking unhealthy and slightly disordered (I’m not a doctor so I can’t diagnose people over the internet) but because they have some lame ass fan-base on Tumblr, they are the Gods of Healthy Living.
I’m not saying I’m perfect, but I also don’t give out advice about something I don’t have a clue about. I have a body type a lot of people probably do not prefer and that’s cool with me, everyone has different preferences. But I eat well over 2000+ calories and I’m the smallest I have ever been in my adult life, size wise.
So if you’re afraid to eat over 1200 calories, or want to go on some ridiculous juice fast, or just want to starve, you need to re-evaluate yourself, your goals, and get healthy inside first. AND STOP FUCKING PROJECTING AND PREACHING YOUR UNHEALTHY TENDENCIES ON YOUR NAIVE FOLLOWERS. assholes.

fitzoey:

Bazooka-show Thursday (Gun show was a little boring) you can actually see my birthmark under my arm, something I’m pretty self-conscious of but whatever :-P

I look frazzled in the picture because I’ve been taking care of my 11-month old twin nieces all day, I’m so tired. I don’t know how my sister does it. I already know I don’t want any children, but man after today, that was the nail in the coffin.

I will be updating tonight about EVERYTHING (good and bad) and answering people back. :)

RANT: I did see a few things right now on Tumblr that really bothered me. While I was clicking around on random Tumblr pages, I came across such a frustrating page. This person was on their FOURTH day of fasting. And when asked about their caloric intake, they try to eat less than 1,000 calories but barely reach 1,000, especially because they work out for more than an hour. This was so sad to me and so frustrating because people think this is NORMAL.
Then there are really “popular” Tumblrs that have lots of followers and give out all this advice but after looking at their intake, they eat like 1200 calories a day, and work out on top of that….

Marta (wonder-girl-fitness) had a great post about thinking before you give out advice. MOST of us on here don’t know much about anything, and aren’t qualified or certified to give out the advice people are looking for.

A lot of people are so fucking unhealthy and slightly disordered (I’m not a doctor so I can’t diagnose people over the internet) but because they have some lame ass fan-base on Tumblr, they are the Gods of Healthy Living.

I’m not saying I’m perfect, but I also don’t give out advice about something I don’t have a clue about. I have a body type a lot of people probably do not prefer and that’s cool with me, everyone has different preferences. But I eat well over 2000+ calories and I’m the smallest I have ever been in my adult life, size wise.

So if you’re afraid to eat over 1200 calories, or want to go on some ridiculous juice fast, or just want to starve, you need to re-evaluate yourself, your goals, and get healthy inside first. AND STOP FUCKING PROJECTING AND PREACHING YOUR UNHEALTHY TENDENCIES ON YOUR NAIVE FOLLOWERS. assholes.

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